Do you know me?

Do you know who I am? I don't. At least not right now. I feel like everything/everyone I know is gone or in a different place and I'm so far away from all of it. I feel uninspired and unmoved. I want to do something...I want to be someone...I want to make things happen...and I can't. I feel powerless right now.

I live in a world of endless youth and frivolity and they can sense I'm not one of them. They're not happy either, but they're not as jaded as I am and can still pretend, with relative ease, that they are. I watch them day to day, slaves to masters that they don't even know exist. They are sheep led by unseen shepherds. Am I any different though? Aren't I just led by a different shepherd? A corporate, socks with sandals, 401K shepherd...

(Skype break...)

Sorry for being an Emo pussy...

So, this has taking me over an hour to write. The reason is that after that last paragraph I had a much needed talk with a really great friend. And while I still don't know exactly what I'm supposed to do, I'm a lot closer to knowing what I'm going to do. I also feel better about that decision. There are a few things that need to happen first, but if they do, big changes are coming.

Stay tuned....

The ever elusive 'r'

"Why don't we just figure out where we're going and when we want to get there...and then rate of speed equals distance over time...solve for 'r'. "

At this point I'd settle for the destination...worry about how long it'll take later